tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18337906359779798952024-03-13T08:41:17.840-04:00Their is a MONSTER in my Brain!I am starting this blog to document my journey with a rare brain tumor that is currently residing on my brain stem.Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-25491590933513791542013-02-11T15:13:00.000-05:002013-02-11T15:13:32.154-05:00<span style="color: purple;"><strong>WOW its been forever dont know where to start January I was diagnosed with a condition called </strong></span><span style="color: #1122cc;"><span class="title"><u>Hydrocephalus and had a vp shunt placed jan 9 <span style="color: purple;">2013 after that i went into with drawls not having steroids found out i need to see a specialist to ween off them . then i got celiulitious skin infection from surgury having to take antiobiotics.<strike>. </strike>Kids r doing well alex had to come home help out after surgury I dont drive atm my choice dont have full strenght vision had doubled I recieved my wheel chair it helps alot I can finally be free out and about, I stayed with mom and tim after surgury while i was trying to regain my strenght. </span></u></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: purple;"><span class="title"><u>not sure what else to say atm so ll write later </u></span></span>Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-72526422126372792122012-06-22T02:18:00.000-04:002012-06-22T02:18:50.354-04:00<strong><span style="color: purple; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well its been so long dont know where to start or what to say. It has been 1 year and 4 months I have been a survivor I continue to do chemotheropy I am stable still struggle with weight and pain depression and understanding what is going on with myself and life acceptance i guess its called.I have been rather weak for a while kids help here and there wish they did without somuch energy on my part. anyway I am stable tumor has not grown from what we can see and no it will not shrink. My pain gets so bad it literally will knock me out and kick my ass when i waike up lol. I decided to stop doing blood work back in december thaught If I ignore the things i should do It would make the cancer less real. Yea that didnt work I guess im feeling I want to be me again have my body again tired of taking meds everyday dr appointments all the time mine and the kids just want the me befor all this. Life changes in the blink of an eye the end of a sentance the touch of a hand the sound of a cry u cant change it when it happens its called life u accept it and move forward thats all we can do, dosent make it any easier to understand or grasp . So many mile stones this year for Myself and my family In march We purchaced a trailer 2 bed 1 and half bath on the lake Its beautiful I just dont find myself embrassing the view and fresh air as i should like I said Acceptance peace understanding just not there anymore. After moving in I pulled out the shower and rebuilt a new one double the size with 2 nice seats in it,Alex has been working here and there that helps,My father and his wife took my sister and I on a cruise we braught and [paid for our other halfs but that was intresting spent some great moments with my sis and the worst moments with our spouses lol alex got drunk and well sprung his foot that was 800 bucks at the dr on board and james well all he wanted was sex and alchol from my sister not me lol .... but heather james and I went in the ocean and found the coolest stuff 2 large star fish lots of other things but we drew the line on looking for more stuff when we grabed something with a stinger Yea its not so safe in the unknown lol. I did my sisters face for pics we had dinner laughed cryed it was great to spend time with her no kids or phones dont believe I thanked her but Im greatful we had time like we did wish it was more. Even spent some time with my dad he is handsome kind and cares we had some moments as for alex i feel we were on a singles cruise hell i never seen his broken foot smoking hiding on deck ass . Moving on... came back from the cruise OOO my mom kept the kids her and tim Thanks to them that wasnt easy to have 6 kids 3 different schools she recieved lots of love from me and items but the stress i couldnt help with Love u mom ur my best friend ok Well after coming home from the cruise I find out Zandor had a epasode in school and the bachoracted him in the hospital and peaceriver cause he said he wanted to hurt his teacher and himself crazy right he is a kid he called his teacher a ghost they took it the wrong way. so sence the trip its been a struggle with zandor he ran away 2 or so times had multipul rides home from the police started new theropy sessions and now is on meds which can be the most stressful to get him to take I feel bad he needs them I hate druging my kid but its what is nessasary I should have done it in 2008 but i felt i got this he dont need pills Well its hard for a mom to igmit she needs help with her kids.So he has been on meds for a month and is alot better dr just increased dosage for him he will start tomorrow.Cody also goes to the dr next week for meds and counsling he has anger issues put his fist up like he wants to hit me hell everyone disrespectful angry he is only 8 i wish i could take his pain from him what makes him so angry and mad.Bryanna lol she is just great mommy i want all day long spoiled anoying most of the time she is the doll dances sings taddles busy body. Glad to say all my kids graduated YAY Cody is in 3rd Zandor is in 2nd and bree is in k. Bryanna just had her 5th b day was a blast large slip and slide lots of fun Cant believe my kids are 8,7,5 im excited to see them grow cant believe ive been a mom for almost 10 years .on the next note My oven broke I wanted a different one anyway no propane this time so I baught a nice flat glass top on craigs list for 325 i believe It works great I can set timers for it to cook when i want it and end when im not here But I wouldnt do that Danger lol lol.I went to the lab corp yeaterday im going to try to do better with my labs and i did my mri also I see dr pan tuesday for results on my brain scan.We did decide at 12 months of chemo to continue to 18 months and see where do we go from there . Lets see what else took the kids to the library they loved it they have learned how to skate at the skate world with there dad a few times one time was there trip for graduating.My sister turned 32 this year took her to out back for lunch I didnt care for there food Mannys is so much better but we had a good time. The kids started a 2 hr session at the bethany c enter every week on tuesday they love it mom goes with me and we have our own councling sessions its fun. It gets lonely at home i guess Wish my husband could try to understand this whole thing that has happended he avoids the facts out loud denile more then i am i guess jusyt want my best friend back my sholder to cry on want it to be ok to cry and it not be a weakness but my expression. I get everyone has a life and things to do but I feel I lost mine on the journey i stoped in a way living and now i do the motions I just dont want to be remembered as weak anyless then who i was befor i got sick I have always been brave out going full of life full of heart and love funny spontanious forward helping hand sholder to lean on bitchy i guess a go getter opinionated demanding smart Its hard when ur memory changes my speed changes on proccesing and doing things but its still me the looks u get from people omg and being hot im always so hot i carry a fan everywhere i go sweating grrrr ... Guess im scared ..Well this year has def been a big year a great year . I know i cant say thank u enough to the ones i love and who have prayed and been here fro me and my family on the whole journey But u know who u r and i love u and thank u . I wouldnt have gotton this far in my journey if it wasnt for thoses who where there emotionaly and physicaly. Well im going to get off here ill try to write more on here for my own records so i dont forget i have 3 kids who will see the dr in the morning for cleanings and a husband to pick up from work im excited cant wait to see how this weekend will go.GN.</span></strong>Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-83648212717485495052011-07-06T02:16:00.001-04:002011-07-06T11:21:52.818-04:00RepoSo today I get a call wanting me to relinquish my vehicle , I have not been able to pay for a few months I already lost my other vehicle last month to repo So this sucks .. I decided to call the guy back and tell him where I live to come and get it.Im sad because my family fit in this and we had some space,It was a good suv. It just sucks I found out I was sick,moved from SC to FL in with my dad ,Had brain surgury,recovery,Found out I have cancer,My kids moved in with my sister ,started chemo,dad went controlingly crazy on me,got sick couldnt do chemo,dad stll crazy, moved in with jennifer and jack plus there 3,had chemo,went to SC to get our stuff,kids came back to me,things starting to settle I have a repo on my van ouch that really hurt,its ok I got a tiny dodge neon to get me to my appointments ,,,Hmmm was thinking save on gas not family car,any way things have been settling ,had bryannas 4th b day party,went on vacation ,and now another repo. We have lost our home ,surroundings,friends,family,security,our state of sc,our comfort,our vehicles, my health, And have gained a new family of 5 :) and there home ,A blessing im stable,kids are aaround family all the time,school is not so bad :) im sure there is much more positive thiings to type about but im drawing a blank atm Frankly im just sad feeling reaslly sad and overwelmed. I feel so alone ... I try to talk to my mom but she never truely listens ,my sister is always working she lets life live her.Alex well thats just a wall i cant crack ..If I change my meds I have to make an announcment to everyone in hopes someone will remember it if something goes wrong with me.I have jennifer she hears me but she is depressed and overwelmed to.I have decided if I have pain shhhh about it,feeling shhh about it,black out shhh about it unless I talk to my dr Because the people I need most dont see me they dont hear me,I told my mom today I had sensation in my mouth up top on my gums when I was eating ice cream I had to tell her 4 times befor she really listened.Whats the point to talk about the pain or discomfort when thats all it can ever be is talk of my pain and discomfort unless the meds work or i am magically cured ....Befor I go to bed at night I try to make sure I have things in line paper work filled correctly kids xxxooo in case I dont waike up dont get me wrong its also less for me to do the next day but I feel like i cant get it perfect Im just not readyto pass .On a lighter note but worser note our septic needs a new drain field its backed up Jack and Alex were out there digging and scooping ...This sucks I live off less then 450 amonth ssi for 5 people I know jennifer wouldnt ask me for the money because she understands my condition but I feel the need to help I as well as my family live here so whats my roomates /family issues is ours also ....Ava and the boys went swiming for a few hrs today They went right to bed after the pool.Thay had fun....... I hope this grief counslor will work with us all well w need this ..... Jennifer gave me andrew for a little bit He was so sweet laying on me suking his thum,holding his blanked singig to me softly aww so he wa s so so so sweet...I was laughing and having fun with him Then jennifer and andrew went to bed.I miss it when my kids were smaller so less opinionated lol....But Im happy they r growing and strong minds I see them growing into there own its amazing...Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-53961815468258482362011-07-05T02:12:00.000-04:002011-07-05T02:12:59.445-04:00Finished my fourth round of ChemoThe past week has been really busy, Started chemo on 6-27 ended on 7-1.. Took the kids to see transformers 3d They were excited it was there first time in a movie theater...They loved it Zandor shouted WOW AWSOME lol. Ive been really tired lately slugish.I miss bRyanna she is in tallahassee with her Aunt for a summer visit.Ive been bonding with the boys .Alex is still looking for a job Hope he gets one soon The savings from my ssi WE have been living on is almost gone .Its so hard somedays. I would get a job if I could and then I think I have a fatal desease in my brain stem Money comes and goes we struggle we live but how long I get to spend with my family means more than a paycheck at this point.So im leaning on God to help us and Alex to get a job .I rested today just passed out while reading a book slept for almost 5 hrs WOW that felt nice..Im not sure what I spoke about inb my past blogs at this momet but I joined a 12 week live strong programe for cancer survivors at the YMCA ...im excited and scared.. Today for the 4th of july the kids watched awsome fireworks from the kitchen standing on chairs The bugs were bad out side. Cody and I hade fun Alex and Zandor wanted to play on there electronics grr ...Working on the kitchen organizing stuff Trying to help makejennifers life easier more organized Guess im trying to let her see I am here and I am trying to help her and all of us be more organized Hey having 6 kids in the house and 4 adults moving every direction the organization and clean ness takes some stress away ....Got The kids room done,my bathroom,my room,the pantry,kids cabinet,im wanting to help get all jennifers vision done rearange the livingroom and play room. Ive been trying to eat better drink water not soda no snacking I have accomplished adding water to mmy diet take out once this month and ill be working on portion control. O didnt know if I said how my dr appointment went but I was there at the moffitt june 23 rd I believe All is well I am stable tumor has not grown.Im feeling fast forward I just went and seen my Dr and I go next month for another MRI wow I still do my labs every 2 weeks But I cant stand the mri its to small and I freak out I have to take a few pills and keep my eyes closed ...Im looking at my boys atm Sleeping on my floor They have there own beds but they want to be close to me I just try not to step on them when i get up 4 or so times a night to pee..There my lil men I love them I hope they will always know that .. I got our vacation pictures printed up 300 of them including brees b day I need to get a photo album for the vacation pics ...This blog is everywhere sorry just saying what comes to mind ....Jennifer made a lemon cake today She knows I like it .She should have been resting her back but she did it anyway :) ..The boys played on the wii today Michael Jackson u have to dance like him The kids did great they know them moves ....well im off to bed kids r sleeping and i just wanna snuggle with them ...gnChristinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-12805360311103228832011-06-26T00:34:00.001-04:002011-06-26T00:34:33.451-04:00Alex birthdayOk so today is my husbands 35th birthday He slept till 4 pm and woke up ate and relaxed watched tv till 7 pm We went to pick up Zandor our son at my mothers and were going to go to dinner at dennys I have free dinner coupons Well he starts saying he wants to go to the movies so we drive around the theater we used to go to closed down so we go to another one there not playing anything good and we go to another one there closed to shut down grr...So Alex is stressed because he dont want to do anything for his birthday he is being sour about today.. I think he is feeling bad because he never does anything for me on my birthday..I am not big on hollidays they r always sad for me I always cry Alex never trys to do anything special for me. Anyway we went to the red box and got a movie,grabed dinner his fav a frisco burger for him and chinese for me and the kids. Not going all out but still tryed to make it special O and I got cupcakes and sang happy birthday as he snaped at me to stop singing ...He is so angry and sad depressed snapping at the kids because they r chatting with me while the movie is on ,, Its like the world revolves around him..Im eating my dinner on the bed He finished eating But im still eating and he pulls the blanket not caring he is about to almost spil my plate.Im trying here I havent been yelling at him I have backed off ..I cant wait to start councling I hope he is willing and that it helps him and me..He was telling me for a min tonight that he cant handle me being sick , he was depressed befor I got sick and now he said its worse.I know this effects him and everyone around me but How do you think I feel im the one that is sick I have the tumor why does he get to shut down and be depressed and I have to suck up my feelings and act as if nothing is wrong..Im sick and he is the victum SOMETHING IS WRONG HERE !! I know im sick sometimes I want to just be alone its not possiable Im a mother and a wife.But alex is in his world he dont accept im sick and need him to step up and be here clean ,cook, brush the kids teeth, give them a bath,SOMETHING besides the computer ...Ive backed off of being agressive and demanding and yelling and snapping for 2 days now ,,that is great for me especially the way I have been feeling about him ....I still want him to leave I wonder why he is here He dont help me with my meds,appointments,bills,kids,slacks on house work, That should be me slacking cause im depressed ....I forget things alot these days maybe some is from the tumor maybe some is from the stress I dont know but I have notes everywhere saying what needs to be done or whats important I need someone to be with me know these things incase I forget or need help But he acts like the victume ....Why are you here Is my question for alex...Yes I love him its been 14 years us together I think we want different things I want more and its not items its emotional ..If im stressed enough he will help,but why does it have to get that far...Anyway I tried to give him a relaxed birthday and be kind He just dont see the bigger picture . I need him to grow up or get out I know that sounds bad But im sick I want to be happy dont like the kids seeing me so mad yelling...Why are you here is the main question I have for alex Why?Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-77441683075724296802011-06-25T14:27:00.000-04:002011-06-25T14:27:13.841-04:00Dr Visit --6-23-2011Picked up my mom and drove to the Moffitt..I did the blood work at 10:30 and MRI at 11:00 I cant stand the mri its to small I start to hyperventilate my arms rube the sides and go numb from being the circulation being cut off because the machine is to small for me. Im looking into an open mri but I need a order from my primary DR but because they cancled my appointment we have never meet,they cant call in an order when they havent meet me.They said they can get me in around Aug..<br />
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So the dr at moffitt gave me something to relax me it helped..I did my mri Doing blood work and mri's its just something i will never get used to . <br />
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Well I seen Dr Pan at 3 pm for my results and he said my tumor seems to not have grown and told me I should have started chemo last week Guess I messed up the dates but its ok Ill get back on track.<br />
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Bad news for me I have gained 48 pds in the past 5 months due to my meds im also retaining fluids like a sponge, My head has been hurting so bad lately the dr trippled one of my meds in hopes it will work and I can get off the staroids.<br />
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I got to spend the day with my mom. sucks it had to be at the r office for 9 hrs .....<br />
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I made a few phone calls yesterday 6-24-2011 <br />
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I called the YMCA they offer a 12 week class for survivors with cancer free of charge I guess its bonding,chatting,working out ,swiming Im not so sure just yet but im excited to join, I have a interview on tuesday at 6 pm ..she said the kids can go into the kids room and play and Alex can join m if he likes.Also i contacted a grief counslor for my family so we can each talk about our feelings one on one with someone they will contact me sometime next week I hope they can help us.. This condition I have has effected us all in somany ways Its hard for me to talk about it without crying and being choked up,Alex is in deniel im sick at all he resents me for being sick,Cody will not talk about it at all tells me he is fine,Zandor has a need to understand and listen,and Bryanna just is sad im sick . It was so hard to pick up the phone yesterday and pour my heart out to these strangers asking them for help, My marriage is falling apart Ive been so angry ..Jennifer told me its not fair to myself ,the kids,or alex to kick him out of the house with out really trying ...so I havent yelled at him in liike 24 hrs and im trying to get us help someone to talk to...<br />
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My daughter is in Tallahasee with her Aunt and 4 cousins she will be there for a couple weeks I miss her somuch but Im happy she is having fun and growing as a individuale learning new things.<br />
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Today is Alex b day he is 35...It is 2 pm and he is still in bed He thinks cause its his b day he can be left alone and stay in bed I tryed to explaine to him happy b day but ur still a dad and husband there is still life to be lived...I want to yell at him and throw pillows but I know that wouldnt be a good thing sence I am trying to do better Just wish he was trying to be better to.<br />
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I start my chemo on monday 6-27-2011 Im not looking forward to it Because im already tired and feeling weak and nausiated. this will be my fourth round of chemo I missed one month because I was sick.<br />
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I was cooking dinner last night Alex was making salad and Jennifer was helping and supervising us LOL well she puts on disney music from like lion king and mermaid blasting it while we cook It was great It reminded me when I was younger it was relaxing and filled me inside with joy Those are the moments I want to have more of..<br />
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My sister got a tea recipe from a cancer survivor and swears its a cure for cancer I guess we are going to try to make it Im not a liquid drinker I can take a pill but liquid EWWW but she feels so strongly about theis tea I will make it and drink it to givee her peace..these are the ingreadients but im not sure of the amount<br />
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guess im going to get ready to pick up Zandor from grandmas house He stayed the night last night and Cody the night befor they rotated Its going to pour badly so i guess I should try to go befor it does..<br />
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<div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;">Ginger root</span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;">half Lemon</span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;">cinnamon sticks</span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;">Orange leaves washed well</span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;">Anisette (fennel )</span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;"></span></div><div><span style="color: #400040; font-size: medium;">brown sugar</span></div>Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-44444674906856522812011-06-22T10:31:00.000-04:002011-06-22T10:31:23.316-04:00Vacation...and moreJune 15 started our vacation Memories of love foundation Gave to us 5 days 6 nights at the holliday in express along with seaworld passes,universal islands of adventure,and universal studios.some spending money and food vouchers..THANK YOU TO THEM for doing this for us..<br />
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Alex the kids and I had a blast.The kids were most excited about getting autographs..Zandor and Bryanna loved the fast roller coasters Cody was more reserved very emotional but somestuff he got on he actually liked after was said and done..Cody freaked out on men and black they had to release him from the ride so a kind man Anthony took us back stage and showed us the control panel how the ride works and the people who control everything That was awsome and Cody went on the ride after that he loved it and got to go on ride back to back.<br />
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Seaworld was great the shows were great.<br />
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Islands of adventure do not accomidate handicap very well didnt like it there to much...<br />
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Universal studios was my fav they accomidated us like we were vip,the rides were kid friendly and fun, no line waiting just about every ride. Me having the chair mobile thing we didnt have to wait in lines just the couple Alex and Zandor went on at the end of the day.<br />
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We went to the hotel and went swiming for a few hrs.That was fun the kids and I had a blast Alex took pictures ...<br />
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After our stay was over The day we came home we took the kids to the fun spot..They wanted to gokart ride and so the did and they had fun,bumper boats,bumper cars video arcade ....<br />
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I enjoyed watching the kids laugh so hard and smile and just watching them have no worries just fun...<br />
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We watched a magic trick show Zandor got to be apart of it at universal SSSSOOO cool ...<br />
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Today is june 22nd Bryanna left yesterday to tallahassee with her aunt Debbie and 3 cousins Katelyn,carrissa,and dillon.<br />
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I would like to take the boys to skate world and teach them how to skate this summer ...They have coupons skate 1 dolor a week ....<br />
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Alex has not been my fav person I have been short tempered and nerved by him Feeling stuck,traped,annoyed impatient,overwelmed,tired,just so done with him.If I didnt have kids with him this would be so much easier to flick his ass out like a flea..<br />
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I start my 4th round of chemo on monday, My dad still isnt talking to me,and I do my MRI and see Dr Pan on the 23rd of june.see how everything is going with me.I think Mom is going with me Girl day :) ....YAY....Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-48860235001014819432011-06-14T07:57:00.000-04:002011-06-14T07:57:00.453-04:00Kids out for summer vacation ....Bryanna turned 4....!!!!!!!! having pain in my headThe boys passed in school Im so overwelmed with joy for there accomplishments...<br />
On Tuesday was Avas birthday party at the bouncy house place The kids had a blast even my sister lol..The kids had fun That was great to see i love to see them happy and smileing...<br />
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I decided I was a DR last week and stoped taking my steroids Didnt think i needed to take them anymore..after about 3 days of pain and more pain Alex insisted I take them I have been back on them for over a week now and the pain in my head still hurts befor it was more of a discomfort pain now its Pain im getting headaches intense ones like befor i pass out but im not passing out ,headaches that go through my spine to my neck and pain is pulsing there for a few.wrote to the dr and no response just yet ..<br />
My stress level has been really high the past 2 weeks between us all being sick tummy viruses ect.Ive been angry at my husband and I do mean ANGRY he seems to be lazier,more selfish,not willing to be involved in anything unless asked or should I say commanded or bribed he speaks to me in a rude ness and tone never listening just not helping me I am having to cook,clean,shop,watch the kids,feed them ,shower the kids,, do laundry get my point.He stays in the room not giving a hoot to watch the kids unless they r screaming at eachother.Jennifer thinks I can be nicer to him I look at it as I am always on duty he should be to.<br />
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I feel like I cant leave the house I had a DR appointment today that got cancled you think tthey would have called to tell me grrr ....anyway so I did a few few things on my list and stoped at my moms house ended up falling asleep for a little while ( Finally some peace ) from Alex and stress.....Point being I feel like I cant leave the house I was gone a few hrs and come home to my sweet kids on the couch watching tv :) garbage over flowing,bathroom has wet clothes and pee diapers everywhere,my room is up side down messy no bed made The room Jennifer and I worked so hard on not to bad ...I dont want to stress over it its cleanable I just feel all the time and effort and love and anger I put into organizing and cleaning someone would care enough to put it down pick it up enforce the kids to be accountable for there actions more I feel its me against 5 kids ..do I want to hug and craddle my kids YES but it will not help them in the future if I dont stay on top of them now... Yes im venting,No this is not a direct attack on anyone..I think maybe im not as bothered with the kids doing the mess as I am with the fact that Alex dont help much in cleaning or doing anything.Unless he sees me stressing<br />
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Bryanna turned 4 YAY......Her party way yesterday ..Bryanna was at grandmas for a little while why We set up the party, Ava went to the store and baught Bree a gift and was waiting so sweetly for bree to be here She was so excited to give her The gifts she baught....They now have matching friendship jewlery and have announced they are best friends...We had a cook out and the kids went swiming her cake was my little pony BEAUTIFUL CAKE !!! The party went well ..I got to spend time with the people I love ....no fighting Alex helped......After everyone left and we cleaned up I played with Bryanna,Ava,Zandor,and Cody my little ponys wE BRUSHED THERE HAIR AND DRESSING THEM i HAD SO MUCH FUN Alex even played a few min....... My little ponys are awsome...<br />
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Memories of love foundation gave us a Wonderful gift A vacation fully paid .6 days and 5 nights Hotel and 3 theme parks Seaworld.Islands of adventure and Universal Studios, some food vouchers and 200 dollors in spending cash... Thank you to my special someone who has helped by donating. My scooter rental is crazy for 3 day rental .We leave this week,The kids are so excited im excited to see them have fun and them not have to think about mommy being sick I cant wait to hear the sound of there voices giggling and laughing.<br />
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I have tried to contact my dad, I do miss him alot reguardless of our disagrements..He will not return the effort.I wish he would just grow up.We r adults and we can disagree but still be family.<br />
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I want to thank Jennifer and Jack and ava for being here for us and welcoming us in there home smiling through the stress and just being true friends loving good hearted people, I know its not easy having a family of 5 and to add on a family of 5..Thank you and I love you...Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-1384592577172608972011-06-02T00:23:00.000-04:002011-06-02T00:23:28.221-04:00Great News....Im Excited to share with everyone Both of my sons have passed Cody is going into 2nd and Zandor into 1st. Im so proud !!!!<br />
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My 3 kids and Ava have been whinning and crying and fighting all the time its causing Jennifer and I to have stressed nerves ....I hope we can figure a way to heal these kids pain so they can get along .,..<br />
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I stoped taking my staroids monday may 30th I dont feel I need to be on them. I have put on 40pds this year and did well with my diet and still gained ...My head preasure has changed some but Ill give it a few days see how I feel...<br />
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Went to the salvation army today with jennifer everything if 50 percent off I got Zandor a bike for 12 bucks im still looking for bree and cody a bike for summer vacation hope them rideing will incourage me to walk.<br />
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there is like 8 days of school left, Kids r exctited I just registered bree in school ...for next yr<br />
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Bryannas b day is coming up on the 10 th she will be 4 she is excited :)<br />
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We were Given a 5 night 6 day vacation ,the suit is huge and paid for and free passes to seaworld,universal studios,and island of adventure we leave on the 15 and come back on the 20th..We r excited This is our first ultimate family vacation. I hope I will have strength and the weather good and the days go smoothly and get lots of memories and the kids have there best day ever.... <br />
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I think im going to miss my roomates .......<br />
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Jennifer was at the mall today and got me some much needed underware THANK YOU !<br />
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This month is going to be busy busy lots of birthdays and dr appointments....I have another MRI to see how the tummor is doing ...<br />
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well GNChristinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-47214474856843074772011-05-30T01:42:00.000-04:002011-05-30T01:42:03.751-04:00Its a new day...Jack, Jennifers husband took Bryanna,Cody,and his 3 kids to church. They had fun Cody came him and said I know what prayer is Mommy and I said o what is prayer...He said its where u talk to God. Im so proud of my Son, He was excited he learned that.Even more excited to share it with me and everyone in his path ...<br />
While they were aT church I was bonding with Zandor , He and I relaxed :)<br />
and Bree did some really nice art work..<br />
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later in the day jack decided we should have a cook out,OK then it was funny trying to make the menue and pick our recipies....I decided to make macaroni salad WHAT WENT WRONG it was not so good,So we decided potato salad That came out pritty good I migh could make that again...Jack made a cucomber green onion with ranch and pepper splash of vinigar That was good and we made baked beans ,corn on cobb,ricearoni,and Jack used his man tools ( GRILL ) and cooked us the ultimate Jack Daniels flavor ChickenBreast...DInner was great My sister and her 2 kids came overThat was great .I decided there were to many kids to full with for dinner so they all got paper plates and can soda OMG i know Bad me But a SOda here and there will not hurt them I hope.<br />
So then My sister helped me by doing dishes as I cleaned,then I gave Andrew a bath in the sink He is such a good baby dried him up powdered his toosh and lotioned his body mmm he smelled so good...Im growing attached to jennifers monsters....lol<br />
After all the house was done I loaded my 3 kids up and went to my moms She is having boys night at her house my 2 boys They invited me to watch Indiana jones Brree was sleeping on my lap she felt warmthen she woke up crying around 11 pm her tummy hurt so she and I came back home got her some meds Had to bribe her with twistie treat to take the meds ..Prob not a good idea b ut her fever is high and she needed the meds I did what I had to do..... <br />
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Moving on I still feel craby ,snappy,short to the point,grrr,tired,weak,Happy,blessed so BLESSED.<br />
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So Jennifet went to a funeral place to reserve her plots where she will be barried Im sure that had to be hard But made me think I ddont want to place a bigger burden on family when I pass away and then themj have to come up withh $ to barrie me.<br />
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So I will be looking around this week If i have the energy... This will be hard but need sto be done..<br />
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This is my day I must go for now my PM pills r kicking in on me got to go to bed.Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-62533651531983591412011-05-28T00:33:00.000-04:002011-05-28T00:33:00.072-04:00My emotions are out there This week....So I find that this week im slightly emotionally disturbed...My sister is having a hard time. She lost a dear friend,and her husband got fired, she works 2 jobs has 3 kids and struggles to provide food and housing with electric. Jennifer and I provided some food and small cash assistance to get her by for a week or 2 ...It sadens me My sister is going through this and her daughter has failed 2nd grade..She is having it rough. Here I am staying with a friend my family and I , I have no job im unable to work and I am batteling with a desease and have to face reality everyday I get up how blessed I am I have another day but im reminded everyday I have to swallow 16 plus pills or so im weak or feeling sick.I have a big heart all who knows me knows Ill do just about anything I can for someone if I know u or not.My sister struggles day to day week by week month by month no thanks to her husband..No judgement on my part....I just wish he would help my sister as the man of the house and her husband/baby daddy. Okk point being I have a small stash of emergency money that I have managed to save I dont know how I have done it But I have I need to go to the dentist,what if my car breaks down,kids need stuff for school next year,whatever it is ,,,My mother thinks im wrong because my sister could use the money now she needs it more then I do...Im the one thats sick Ill help as I can but to make me feel like shit My sister is strong She will make it Hell she has her health For now She needs to stop drinking and smoking,im her sister I will not let her kids or her or her husband starve Mom said im wrong for not giving her 300 bucks People have helped me in this time of need ...Let me stress to my readers I have recieved blessings and I have given blessings Even not knowing where the gas money will come from next to get me to my dr in tampa I still gave my last 2 dollors to a kid raising money for football.My emotions r going crazy I feel so angry My sister is struggling yes Im sorry for that,I will be there for her however I can But damit u can live a healthy life if u stop the drinking and smoking It pisses me off PiSSES me OFF im sick That my sister sees me fighting to live and still does stupid stuff..to her body. Pisses me off how people stress over the little things and dont pay mind to the important things. I just feel so angry this week, sad, My body isnt mine anymore its the vampires and machines,my life revolves around Dr appointments and pills and needles.I am surrounded by people who love me Well Jennifer is here for me and the kids My family Is a phone call away But I feel so alone they can relate but they dont understand my feelings... I smile and say im ok things are good truth is im so scared and in pain,lost, overwelmed,uncertin,hard headed and stubborn.People ask me how do u feel,or u look great do u feell like u have cancer,It makes me mad because I cant answer these questions for myself and people want answers I cant give cause I dont know So I smile and say sure im good...but I dont believe I have delt with the feelings that linger inside of me.I feel short tempered,stressed,bothered,mad,scared,sad,overwelmed,lonley,just So many emotions Why me Why am I sick Im a good person,its sad that I see so many good people sick or die when the rapist,and drug addicts,pedafiles,these people r healthy out living the people who try to live life the way god intended.Life is what it is god has a purpose for us..I get that..Jennifer is here for me she offers all the time to be involved in what im doing my meds dr appointments kids whatever she can,she yells at me and tells me to rest She keeps me active and reminds me to live life.She is amazing She has her 3 kids battles with her everyday life and still makes time for anyone always thinking about others Guess thats one thing we have in common That prob why we r curvashes we neglect ourself ...I have been very snappy with people this week Maybe its the chemo maybe its the tummor maybe its just me, Th dr said My son Cody is pulling away from me to prepare for my death well thats not comforting and tha Zandor is clingy lately because he is scared of loosing me,and Bree she dont understand she just knows im sick.Ok im tired Just took my last chemo pills for the m o0nth of may So I have finished my 3rd round of chemo YAY...I feel better now that I have written all my feelings out. Im going to bed\Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-52899440984354404512011-05-26T12:36:00.000-04:002011-05-26T12:36:07.703-04:00Whats been going on....Lets see what I can remember from this past month.... I moved out of my dads house,Now my family is together under one roof YAY...We moved in with Jennifer and jack My dad became even more controlling So this was the best step for me and my kids. We have been living with Jennifer and Jack for a month now Things r going great. Kids r happy,they have there own kid room ,play room,outside to play and they can just be a kid.Chemo got cancled last month because I got sick a soar throat...I just started my 3rd round of chemo on monday may 23rd so far so good...There has been a tummy bug going around with my kids and jennifers kids have had a head cold thing I think we r all getting better finally...Cody is having issues in school with some kids He just seems to be angry all the time.Zandor is just easy going he is doing well,and bree well i got her vpk certificate just have to register her in a school She will be attending the same school as Ava. Bree decided to chop her hair off last month So She had to get that fixed now its short the lady said the cut is called a Stack..I tried to save my van but they repoed it. Alex truck is on the repo list I cant afford to keep it its 5 months behind ..Brees birthday is coming upShe wants her ears pierced. I know this letter is so random and bouncig all over the place but its just coming out of me that way.....So The kids and I went to the beach with my Mom her b friend and my sis husband and there 3 kids on mothersday I dont like the ocean but I had a great day relaxing and nice to feel normal feel healthy forgetting im sick for a while It was a great day...I sat in a float and just relaxed the kids swam they did great..Alex,jack,Jennigfer,and I took a trip to SC to get most of my personal items a few weeks ago Jennifer felt that gettinbg my things would help me to feel more at home and she was right...It was a long straight up and back day but it was an experience and bonding time...I enjoyed it..I guess all is well I go back to see DR Pan in june,then ill knoow how the chemo is going..other then that I take all my vit and pills everyday I struggle with drinking the water.My meds have caused me to have a moon face and i have put on about 15 pds grrrr Im not feeling pritty or sexy I feel blah and likie im not me anymoe ....I went to a cancer fee better class for women they walk u through how ur apperience may change and how to stay positive and how to put the makeup on but its not working for me..My hair is slowly falling out not in patches but Its thinning slowly.....My nails r so long and strong ,I know its from the vits im taking....im sure I forgot alot of stuff to put on my blog I will try to update better... Thank u to everyone who has prayed or helped my family in this rough time.Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-2907021933530763902011-03-30T14:11:00.000-04:002011-03-30T14:11:12.631-04:00This week.....Lots of rest..<em><span style="color: #351c75;">Friday March 25 th my kids stayed the night at my sisters They r still there lol and its Wed the 30 th .. I miss them at the same time I have been really weak my blood counts r down Just started my second round of Chemo on monday march 28 th. Started a new pill Lunesta to help me sleep its been helpful. Things with my dad r going ok He has steped back and lets me use a knife now I can cook when im up to it ,but he will not let me talk to my family yet He wants to keep me clear headed and focused on how sick I am and what I need to do to get better I have Cancer a tumor in my brain stem talking or not talking to people will not cure this condition, but ill go along with most of it This is the way he is dealing with it . I have had 2 really great days but the nights have been the worst. Today everything and smell makes me blah but an eggsalad sandwitch .. My friend Jennifer and Jack came to visit me yesterday braught me some girly smell good stuff I so much needed to see real people down to earth loving people...THANKS FOR COMING OVER!!! I so need a wax kit these pills are giving me hair growth like a man EWWWW my husband has the mustash I dont need one to. So the cancer center has a feel good beauty class here for us blessed people batteling cancer Im excited to go I feel not so pritty alot these days I dont look like me anymore Good news Jennifer will be taking me to the class GIRL TIME !!! I must sound crazy like a kid Getting so excited to see people ..I never leave the house dad wants me in the house for 6 weeks ill be free May 6 th its not a punishment I know it sounds like it Im trying to see his point of view He wants me to focus on my condition,read,relax and rest,keep a clear head,plane my will,spend time with my husband and kids ,learn to eat and shop healthy , i get it dad. Ur not the bad guy Ur the scared dad ...Im so concerned for him Its hard for me to be scared for me. I have a comon condition called chemobrain I have short term memory loss and having issues following through with tasks,my family thinks im loosing it dad asked me my email I told him and lisa like 5 times they couldnt get it right I said it the right way but they didnt get it so they said im loosing it and maybe I shouldnt be handling important papers anymore IM like ok people u r the older ones im ok ..but I know im messing #s up and words here and there I messed up my taxes put the wrong social down now we have to fix it amend it grrr.My husband is doing ok I know this is hard on him being here at my dads and dealing with my dads wife I dont think she likes my husband She rides him about everything EVERYTHING ...but he trys to stay positive for me he keeps his head up ...I asked him to put the kids on the bus so we can save gas because we have no income coming in and he said taking the kids to school and picking them up is the only time I can be me and a dad the only time he gets fresh air I hear u hunny Now u might know how I feel I never leave ... I hate needles they hurt and scare me I go to the dr every 2 weeks and get poked Im telling u I look forward to going to the dr because im out and free I see people living and walking and surviving seeing that gives me hope Ill be in recovery someday. Well im off to rest just wanted to write a few of my thaughts out ...</span></em>Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-22203853662397827412011-03-25T06:39:00.000-04:002011-03-25T06:39:19.032-04:00Whats been going on in my head!<strong><span style="color: purple;">Ok so I know its been a while. Not sure if I even remember all that has been going on.so ill start with this past 2 weeks.Things at home have been so stressfull My dad has been crazy mad resurching my cancer finding everything he can to help cure me.He has changed my food to organic grass fed only meats and organic food period.because he is the one here My addvociate he I allowed to handle the food and health attend all dr appointments well lets just say me being so depressed He steped up. It wasnt so bad. Now he is telling me when I can leave the house who I can go with who I cant see or talk to because he feels these people ( My Mom and Sister ) my family as he refers to them as these people dont care to understand that im sick and need the proper taking care of ,and he feels they dont care for me because they dont remind me everysecond with resurch and depression how sick I am.I feel worse these days im trying to do all he asks My meds have me so puffy I feel like a hot air balloon,the pain in my head, the morphine, nore vicoden do not take the pain away, I am weaker, tired, ireatable, frustrated at my memory loss and incompatence to follow through from being weak,I get #s wrong words messed up, Its just so scary and alone,Im on so many pills im getting confussed. I dont know from day to day if ill have lost all feeling in my head or if ill start sceizing,have complete memory loss . My dad likes Jennifer She is the best always been here for me sence im going to say 24 yrs She is the link to the outside world her and facebook :)when im up to getting on here. U have been amazing standing by me in this all u have been through and r going through in ur life and u still find time ,energy,and heart to share. I cant tell u how much u mean to me in my heart U have touched me in a spiritual way of amazement I got to witness the lord through ur eyes and trials in life. On top of what life brings u you have been so graceful to help out with whatever I have needed and I know it has taken a tole on ur finances and ur heart.I love u and ur Husband :) ....So I would like to look for a 5h wheel somekind of trailer to put on my dads land so I can get out of the control box called his house and have my personal freedom with my kids and husband and still feel safe that my dad is just next store if i need him. The kids r doing ok They here and see that im sick they stay outside dad dont feel that the kids take care of his 1500 dollor table they tend to bump the chairs to the table THERE KIDS so they r outside eating and playing with sticks . I cant buy them stuff we r financialy straped gas money is our biggest concern that and 3 months behind on the truck . Jennifer had a yard sale and they gave us some money from there success that day I took cody needed 10 dollors and zandor needed 4 for there field trip coming up It felt so good to give them that It wasnt much and I have no money but to give them that day out of here to have fun something I cant do with them right now I know they will have a blast and the lord will provide away for us. I spent some time with the kids yeaterday one on one in the evening and Read them books befor bed I miss doing all that its been a while. I just had a rough day yesterday it scared me and I know it scared my dad we both had tears in our eyes.Im looking at him and he dont know what to do.I got to spend spring break over at my moms I ran away hehehe took me the kids and alex soent all week there after I left elaines party which was fun TY Elaine nice to see u and get out. Miss u ....Ended up not feeling well the foods I could eat was Publix premium cherry nut ice cream and crabmeat imotation from the seafood dept. I had a great time at moms we dont get to see eachother much these days so we didnt want to sleep we were staying up all night killing ourselfes.It was just great to be with here. I love her so much I need her to be here and dad is making it so hard. Also my neice turned 5 and nephew turned 13 party at my sisters house sunday that passed So dad made my sister a menue of what to feed me and I told her its the kids party she will not make health foods for me im a big girl I will decide what ill eat focus on ur kids big day. Well the party was great my sis yea she missed me or it was the 4loco that had her rubbing my head most of the time Im like sis can u rub the right half of my head the left is numb lol anyway she was a sport I love her So I ate some bakebeans and a beef hotdog OMG now my dad has blacklisted her ass Im like dad im 28 yrs old im double her weight do u think she is going to try to take my hotdog from me I ate it its not her fault But he seems to think If he stops he and I from talking to her she will learn a lesson ..I dont know Its childish.I get dad is trying to be all he can be to help me but im not 8 im married I have 3 kids im almost 30.So let me recap myself here kids r doing good in school,Alex is cut off from the computer dad feels its best for him to be more attenative to me and the kids, so alex is loosing his mind , Im cut from my mom and sister and my cell so i can focus on me , im not allowed to leave the house my blood counts r down and chemo starts again on monday the 28th,jennifer u can visit me,mom is well I think, she misses me,I miss her .heather get ur ass over here and kick dads he is wrong and this is a stupid ur going to listen to me game he is playing,Elaine thank u for the party had fun last week and If ur not useing the trampoline still my dad said its ok if the kids have it here if ur ok with it,Jennifer dont forget the hot tub :) come play with me...And how do I feel emotionaly Im sad,feel forgotten,my voice dont matter,like people see me but dont hear me,feel like im already gone and people speak of me not to me by people refering to dad. He wants me to focus on being a machine not being happy. Im looking into a cancer class there r 2 coming up i hope to go and maybe bring family or friends if they want to go.Well im going to get the kids up and ready for school soon ..Keep in mind if u r looking to help out we r still in need of simple daily items Toilete paper,laundry soap,hand soap,gas cards,bathroom stuff,outside stuff for the kids A bag of m&ms to hide under my bed hehehe. Well ttyl </span></strong>Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833790635977979895.post-85215890876963111542011-02-17T18:02:00.001-05:002011-02-17T21:30:30.719-05:00A little something about me and my journey<strong><span style="color: purple;">My name is Christine,</span></strong><br />
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<strong><span style="color: purple;">I am twentyeight years old. I have been with my Husband Alex for fourteen years and Married for nine. We have three amazing children together Cody our oldest is seven , Zandor is six , and our daughter Bryanna is three.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">They are my life , they keep me focused, strong, and positive.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Last year in August 2010, I began experiencing major head pain. Around November my pain increaded a feeling of my brain swelling trying to crack through my skull.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">I thaugh maybe I was just under stress and maybe was having high blood preasure sence it dones run in my family.</span></strong><br />
<span style="color: purple;"><strong>December 2010 I started to collapse this accured two times. in January 2011 I was working in a house and blacked out . My boss made sure I got home,my Husband is going to take me to the ER. I called my Mother-in-law she said she would watch the kids while we went.I started packing there over night bag and I collapsed at there feet. We knew something was wrong with me and the kids were scared.</strong></span><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Alex took me to the ER Jan 19, 2011 around 9:00 pm We were sent home around 1 am - </span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;"> Diagnosis - Headache, take a pain pill.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">We left and were not ok with the diagnosis, I was having vision problems following headaches , my balance was off ,random day and night sweats,falling down,loosing balance,breaking dishes and droping stuff not being able to keep firm grip on stuff. This is not normal I am not ok..</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Woke up around 6 am, There was a voice mail on my cell phone from a Dr. at the ER he called around 3:30 am,asking us to comeback in they seen something abnormal in my cat scan and need to do an MRI.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">we arrieved to the ER they were expecting us This time the Diagnosus I have a mass in my brainStem.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Because of my pain and disorientation working had been diffacult for me, But im a Mom and the circumstances put me to be the main provider and Alex a stay at home dad.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Immediatly Alex and I looked at eachother unsure if this was real. The DR. told us where the mass is they will not be able to attempt to do a byopsi, They wanted to send me somewhere else.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">I called my Father in FL. told him everything I could remember that was just told to me, The DR got on the phone and explained what they have seen and believe it to be . Im still in shock and disbeliefe. My Dad stayed strong and focused asking questions wanting and needing to understand. It felt like he was in the room holding my hand a peaceful confussing momment for me.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Over the next couple days we were seeing more DR's lots more tests and everything was just being confirmed.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">My Father and his Wife offered to have us come stay with them.we were going to be homeless with me not being able to work and would not be able to focus on be trying to get better and find out what I really had. I needed the family support in this.On January 31,2011 ten days after being diagnosed I moved my family of five from SC to FL to live with my Dad,left everything behind except our clothes and our truck we drove.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">New symptoms accuring the left side of my face was numb.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Immediatly the nest day Febuary 1, 2011 My father and I went to LakelandRegional MedicalCenter.Come to find out the surgon didn't want no partof my brain mass.He dont want to take part in something that can kill me.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;"> </span></strong><strong><span style="color: purple;">Dad and I felt so defeated, we had three rejections and all bad news....</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">After we left Lakeland Regional Medical center, we took a stroll over to the church my father attends. I must say the most peaceful,wonderful,loved walk I ever had.Somany feelings and yet a sence of calm. This was the first time I ever prayed with my Earthly Father and a moment we will never forget.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">We woke up the next morning febuary 2, 2011 and drove to Tampa in hopes that the Moffitt would help me,but more bad news They said my insurance is still pending also because I didnt have a biopsy performed there was no proof or rush of the matter,for her to go to the board and see if they would take me. This was insane no one would do the biopsy how can I be diagnosed if they will not touch me. So we recieved a no not at this time from Moffitt .. Another sad moment ....</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">After this we went to Tampa general,pleaded my case,showedthem all my records,cat scans,mri disc I recieved from earlier DR appointment. This DR at TGH felt this would be a tricky opperation but confident he could do the biopsy. This biopsy no one else would do. TGH admitted me wed feb 2,2011 and friday feb 4,2011 at 7 am I went in surgury for the biopsy.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">This has been very fast an up and down road for us all.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">Had a meeting with the surgon Dr Donald Smith Feb 10,2011, He said not all the results are in but there is a diganosis I have mixed tumor oligo astrocytoma oligodendroglioma astrocytoma located in the brain stem. </span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">My husband Alex stays home and cares for our three children and helps me with my personal needs, My father Joey helps take care of me ,My health,meds,food,dr appointments,resurch,anything he can.Every day task for me are much harder.Lisa my fathers wife she is the only source of income in this house hold of Seven. She helps out with the kids and keeping the house hold together Anything she can. They have been great opening up there home and just staying positive and focused on what is best for me. </span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">I know this is overwelming for all of us, so much to take in at once.</span></strong><br />
<strong><span style="color: purple;">I'm so Blessed to have them in our life, so Blessed they have been Blessed to be able to be here for us.</span></strong>Christinehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15266391761931093780noreply@blogger.com0